The one where I am thanking Sean

Nobody had commented on "The one where I wonder what has happened to society?" and "The one where miles isn't getting time with me!" so when I posted "The one where..." I didn't expect a comment. But when I signed on after I woke up, checked my blog and saw a comment I wanted to see who loved me. To my surprise a guy who is an admissions counselor at LDSBC, Sean, commented on my blog and gave me some great advice. I tried to write on his blog or at least try to get his e-mail or some way of thanking him but blogger said "profile not available." I want to thank him but there is no way to do it. So I am hoping he happens on my profile again and reads this because I am so grateful for what he said. I hope I can meet him in person when I go out to LDSBC and thank him.

The one where...

I've been looking at my blog for the last twenty minutes...what to write is my question. I just can't figure out a topic, I just don't know. There we go finally I have a topic-I don't know. Life is getting harder as this summer continues. High School is over but college has yet to begin-I'm in between and starting to think of that one song Brittany Spears sang that went something like this: i'm not a girl not yet a woman (please help me, shoot me for even thinking of those lyrics) Where so I stand-I feel out of place in Young Womens and SO out of place in Young Single Adults, although I did meet a really nice guy though but that's besides the point(and he's out of my league). Where do I belong? Where should I be, maybe I should just go hang with my mom in primary(there was a primary jamboree, took place in the [flat rock] primary-insideout a capella) I don't know what to do about guys. Awhile ago I had decided and then accepted that God didn't want me to have a boyfriend cause I thought nobody liked me in that way...then Jason and Miles came along. The verdict is still out on Jason's part-I can't ask because I'm afraid he might not feel the same way I do. I know Miles likes me now but he kinda missed the boat-I don't like him the way I used to(i'm over his eyes, i'm over his games-katharine mcphee)...read the below blog. I was at lunch with Kate last week and I was telling her about this(she doesn't like Jason, she thinks he's sketchy but whatev, and so she pretty much roots for anyone that isn't him), I told her about God not wanting me to have a boyfriend and what she said has been making think "Well, now you have to accept that his plan changes" or something similar to that. And anyone who knows me knows that change and I aren't best friends. [I just took my hair out of a ponytail and smelled my hair, let me just say I love herbal essences, now back to what I was talking about] We just don't get along which is why I won't marry someone in the military-I moved around enough as a child. I'm not officially into LDS Business College yet and my family won't stop breathing down my back. How do you write an essay stating why you should get in with out sounding like an arrogant brat? It's not like I'm scared or anything, it's an open admissions college. I tried to write it and sent to my Uncle Markham to edit cause he said he would and he hasn't sent it back yet which is kind of starting to freak me out. I just don't know what I want with college, I want to go to LDSBC but then again I don't. I just don't want this summer to end because if it does than I have to face reality and it's harsh. I don't want to go to college and be all on my own, for years I thought I was ready but now that's it's close I see that I am not. Why did I take for granted all those years as a small child when life was easy and all I did was show up? I realize that this blog is getting long so I will end and although I am so unsure of many things I do know that I love you, and I am so thankful that God has put you in my life(and while I am saying these things For Good-Wicked starts to play in my mind). I hope I can stay in touch with you when I leave for Utah.

The one where Miles isn't getting time with me!

So there is this guy miles and here's the history-met him at the beginning of school, became friends, then sort of liked him, then started liking someone else, second semester we had two classes together and spent 3 and a half hours together everyday(that includes RNN), I helped him in spanish and he flirted with me and I kinda flirted back. Three days after graduation he texts me to tell me he likes me and wants to 'hang out' later that week...so i talk to him and tell him i can't considering that I leave for girls camp the next day. Now that you're caught up...we tried to make plans for this weekend but things didn't work out. We were originally gonna go to a movie-but considering he's not a member i thought that might not be a good idea if I just want to go as friends. So then I suggested going to a local indoor arena football game-he said he didn't know(come on I knew what he meant) so I tried to find someone who would go with us with no avail. So when Sister Evans called on thursday to babysit friday I jumped at the chance, my reasoning-you snooze you lose. Then while I was on my way to ATL Sister Johnson called and left a message, she asked me to babysit this afternoon. So I called her yesterday and said I would love to. So until today, after I started this blog, I hadn't talked to Miles since wednesday. He wants to do something but I'm all booked! Oh well, I don't feel that bad-if he had really wanted to do something he would have acted faster.

The one where I wonder what has happened to society?

How old do I look? Seriously now do I look old enough to have a child? This week while my mom was in Maine I watched Cully Coates and no joke about 25 people came up to me and somehow made a reference that he was my child. Are you kidding me? I'm seventeen , just graduated high school and you think I'm a mom! What happened to our society? Seriously now, come on any teenager is not ready to have a child we all know that. I was talking to my mom and my Aunt Lindsay is only six years older than me, my mom would take her to the store when she was little and everyone would say is this your sister? Why can't people ask me if I'm his big sister? Did the media and the entertainment put these ideas in our head, telling us that it was just a fact of life that teenagers have kids this young and we should just accept it. I for one stand up and say no-teenagers aren't ready for one kid let alone more. I watched Blake and Matt Evans while I had Cully yesterday, let me say that is a very effective form of birth control. I'm not ready to have three boys going in all different directions, doing laundry, feeding them and trying to keep them happy all day everyday. Don't get me wrong, I want kids just not now. I want kids when I'm married to my husband in the temple. I want kids when we'll be prepared, when we both know that it will be tons of work but it will be worth it.

The one where I salute our troops!

Often we hear people not supporting our troops at war, and that makes me mad. They put their lives on hold to serve our country and defend our freedom. When young men, right out of high school, sign up to defend your freedom of speech and you take it and show you have no support for them...that's just not right! My friend Caleb is off to Marine Boot Camp in a couple weeks, my friend Jason is going to ranger school in August and living in a ward that has half of Fort Benning in its boundaries has made me support and respect our military even more. I don't want any of my friends, like Brother Shillig, Mike Arner, Brother Israel, Brother Harper, to get deployed but if that's what happens then I will support them in whatever way they want me to. And to those civilians that think we should pull out now, we're in now and if we pull out that will make them think they have won. We're in and like it or not we have to stay until we get the job done, that's the way its got to be. And the sooner you support out troops the better because they need all the support they can get. Sorry that turned into a rant but it needed to be said. We'll I'm off to camp tomorrow, I'll be back saturday night

The one where I am done!

So last night I had my graduation ceremony! I was in and out in an hour and a half, and there were 249 graduates. I don't really miss it, I'm really glad its all done. I had a BBQ this afternoon, it was really fun. The Johnsons, Evans, Shilligs, Murphys, Pews, Frasers, and the Hannas came. I really love these families, I am really gonna miss them. Well I'm off to write thank you letters!

The one where I keep repeating 9 days...9 days...9 days!

So ummmm... yeah graduation is in nine days and I can't wait. I am so ready to go to college all I need to do is write that admissions essay and get accepted. No big deal, yeah right! The problem is I just don't know what to write about, I have what the title needs to be (What sets you apart from other applicants, based on unique educational or life experiences, personal or family circumstances, obstacles overcome and/or achievements?) but I have no idea where to start. I don't want to sound cockey. Grandma and Grandpa Murphy get here today! I have my last practice today for Powder Puff and then the game is tomorrow. Grandpa is coming a week early so he can see my game. Well gtg, the bell rang for second block so later loves!

The one where I went to the temple and Sister Shillig loved hanging out with me!

Okay so today was my last temple trip as a young woman D:! It was really cool cause with 9 youth we did 471 names! I did 35 baptisms and 6 confirmations. And the guy who confirmed me kept calling me Sister Griffin or Griffith (i can't remember which one) and so after he was done he asked if I was dating anyone with that last name and I said no and then one of the other guys said now you know who to look for. (nuh, nuh, nuh, nuh, nuh, nuh, nuh, nuh!) We went to the bookstore and then ate at none other than the amazingly delicious Chic-fil-a! I rode up with sister shillig, she's the new young women's leader and def one of my top faves! I stayed awake the whole time up there and we talked but I couldn't quite stay awake on the way back and I'm pretty sure I was asleep for most of the ride. I love sister shillig, she kept me laughing with all her stories. When we got back I took the waltons home, went home to straighten my hair and then I went back to the church to go to Nick's baptism and then went across the hall to Camille's reception. So today was pretty busy.

The one where I wish wasn't sick!

I've been sick with a cold for the past three days. I worked monday and yesterday, for those of you who don't know I got at Brusters it's an ice cream place and it also serves Nathan's (the famous hot dogs from coney island). I can't wait for my Aunt Sarah and her family to come visit next week, I wish my Aunt Emily would(hint-hint)! My Gramie just visited me and she'll be back for Spring Break, cause we are going to Disney World. I have to go the bell for Channel One is about to ring, laters!

The one where I am sorry I haven't been more consistent

Okay so I finished the third work and the glory and I am sorry I haven't written more about it. So in a nut shell; Rebecca dumps her sorry boyfriend for not being friendly towards the church, Jessica moves back to Missouri, then Mathew moves up there. Jessica gets remarried and she becomes the step-mother of two boys. Then the rest of the Steed family moves up there, except for Melissa cause she kind of falls away becuase of her stupid boyfriend(did she learn nothing from the bible, marry in the covenant!) Joshua has a baby girl and when he goes with a team to deliver stuff he decides to go to Missouri to see how his family is doing(I forgot how he knew they were there) but they didn't recognize him. So then later his wife goes to see her husband's family because she believes her daughter should be able to know her grandparents. Then she comes home becuase she knew she should have asked Joshua's permission(there is no way I would have done that, I can do whatever the heck I want). Then Nathan went to visit him, but Joshua's wife and children were already on the way back to see the rest of the Steeds. Nathan told Joshua he forgave him and he should come see his family so then they came back. Father Steed was still mad a Joshua and hated when people said his name so Lydia, Nathan's wife, asked Joseph to come talk to the WHOLE Steed family and just when the family thought Joseph was going to leave, Joseph opened the door to let Nathan and Joshua in. Father Steed gave Joshua a hug and then the book ended. I know I was so mad! Well Emily, are you happy now? I have to go advisors is almost over!