Tuesday, August 31, 2010

the one with my morning walk

i walked out of my apartment
at exactly 7:35
walked up my little drive way and 
headed towards the school

i passed the house where 
a band practices at odd hours

i crossed the street
i passed the house where
this creepy guy who likes to talk to be lives
i passed the apartment where
this mexican who likes to hit on me lives
again i crossed the street
to the house where this cute
little old lady lives with a
little garden
i passed a quote i like on a building

across the street i went
i got about half way when
i could see this little old house
that back in the day must have been beautiful!

the first couple of times I walked
past, it kinda freaked me out
you can't really see inside the yard
due to overgrowth of trees
but i've come to see that it's
harmless, like it's owners
today an old man walked out
with a suit and breifcase,
off to work no doubt

we crossed the back of the
high school baseball field
he bent over and picked something
it was odd to me

we kept walking,
in front of this adorable house
[which is for sale btw]
he bent over and picked up
a couple more things

when he stood up i realized
what he was doing
on his way to work 
he was picking up trash

as we crossed the next street
he went to the storm drain
and pulled out a nasty
looking bag

his walk to work is short
but he makes it worth something

what do I do?
turn on my iPod and jam out



Friday, August 27, 2010

the one with reflection as i leave the 'teens' behind

I used to think birthdays were all about me
just me, it was my day

but they aren't
they are about the ones i love
the ones that love me

like my mom, who 
somehow was okay with carrying me all summer
my dad who changed all those 
'crappy' diapers

my grandparents who fawned over me
[i must admit i was a precious kid]

and my aunts and uncles
who love me even though i'm crazy sometimes
and my cousins who love me
because i am crazy

then there are friends
who are friends for reasons 
i can't even begin to fathom

Monday, August 16, 2010

the one where i think i'm an insomniac

so i used to text a friend 
who worked the night shift
until about 1 in the morning for two reasons

1. i wanted to stay up
2. i kind of liked him

and now that he's off the night shift
i can't get to sleep before 12:30 on any given night
and sometimes it's even later
and i usually wake up a couple times before i need to get up

now, it's not completely his fault
it started my first week of college
i realized that i didn't have a bedtime
and i could stay up as late as wanted

and it became a bad habit of staying up late,
sometimes all night. 
because i'm human, i now see
what a bad idea it was-
at least most of the time

i've resorted to the usual reading of books
which no longer tire me
i've tried reading the scriptures
which never worked for me

a couple weeks ago
i even cleaned my room because i couldn't sleep
and after a half hour of reading last night 
i worked out

so i've started something
if i am awake even a minute past 11
i have to workout before i go to bed

how does that sound?
what do you do when you can't sleep?

Thursday, August 5, 2010

The one where i don't have a plan

today
i have no plan
i know i need to post something
but there's no agenda

my aunt sarah wrote, in a journal
that she gave me, a quote
"a wise a woman once told me
writing down your thoughts
will free your mind"

oh how true that is!
without realizing,
the past weeks of my journal writing
have been me, writing down everything
i've been thinking, everything!

i guess it's because
i don't have a true confidant
some people, know some parts
but i don't really trust anyone with all of it
maybe because i don't want someone
to be able to hold it all against me
maybe it's irrational

but back to the point...
maybe that's the reason the prophets
tell us to write in our journals
it frees our mind and allows the things that matter
to occupy our minds

what do you think?



Monday, August 2, 2010

the one with reminiscing

back when myspace was cool
and there was no facebook
i used to take these ALL the time
this week's theme for me is reminising
enjoy!

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = water
2. last phone call = gramie
3. last text message = laughing back at something becca said
4. last song you listened to = we didn't start the fire-billy joel
5. last time you cried = friday night while watching charlie st. cloud

HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = nope
7. been cheated on = nope
8. kissed someone & regretted it = nope
9. lost someone special = yes
10. been depressed =yep
11. been drunk and threw up = never!

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. brown
13. pink
14. a spring green

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU:
15. Made a new friend = yep
16. Fallen out of love = technically? no
17. Laughed until you cried = yes
18. Met someone who changed you = yes
20. Found out someone was talking about you = yep, i was less than happy
21. Kissed anyone on your Facebook friends list = well i kissed my brother on the cheek, don't think that counts

GENERAL:
22. How many people on your Facebook friends list do you know in real life = all of them
24. Do you have any pets = no, but i want a fish
25. Do you want to change your name = already did
26. What did you do for your last birthday = woke up to grama's house decorated for me, worked, went out to dinner with my grama, kathy and ryan then went back to grama's and hung out after some cake
27. What time did you wake up today = 6:20 sadly
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = watching veronica mars, super good!
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = to transfer up to BYU-Idaho
30. Last time you saw your Mother =july 13
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = i would be married and attending byu-i
32. What are you listening to right now = pandora [friday i'm in love-the cure], people talking and the keyboard
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom = probably
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = life
35. Most visited webpage = four way tie-pandora, besmart, peoplesoft, and facebook
37. Nicknames = ell, but i hate it!
38. Relationship Status = single
39. Zodiac sign = virgo
40. Male or female = female
41. Elementary = park and larsen in spanish fork and double churches in columbus
42. Middle School = double churches and midland
43. High School = columbus and shaw
44. Hair color = black and brown
45. Long or short = long-ish
46. Height = around 5'6"
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = kind of, but it's a lost cause
48. What do you like about yourself? = umm...idk
49. Piercings = just one in each ear
50. Tattoos = never
51. Righty or lefty = righty

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery = finishing breaking my right arm
53. First piercing = ears
54. First best friend = idk, mom would know
55. First sport you joined = ummm, either baseball, basketball or tennis-ask dad
56. First vacation = umm, probably to go see family-ask my parents
58. First pair of trainers = huh?

RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = nothing
60. Drinking = water
61. I'm about to = answer emails
62. Listening to = don't stop believing, it's a cover so it's not as good as the original
63. Waiting on = my time to punch the clock, want to do laundry and take a nap

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids? = there's no question, heck yes!
65. Get Married? = how about get married first, then kids. but i would like to get married
66. Career = teaching and photography

WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes?= eyes
68. Hugs or kisses = hugs
69. Shorter or taller = taller
71. Romantic or spontaneous = both!
72. Reads the book or watches the movie = depends on the story
73. Sensitive or loud = depends on the situation
74. Hook-up or relationship = relationship
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = once again, depends on the situation

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger = nope
77. Drank hard liquor = never.
78. Lost glasses/contacts = yes, but i found them
79. Sex on first date = never
80. Broken someone's heart = i hope not
81. Had your own heart broken = yes
82. Been arrested= no
83. Turned someone down = yeah, back in middle school
84. Cried when someone died = yeah, a lot
85. Fallen for a friend? = kinda, not really

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = somedays
87. Miracles= yes
88. Love at first sight = idk
89. Heaven = i don't think i could handle life if i didn't
90. Santa Claus = of course
91. Kiss on the first date = idk
92. Angels = yep, my mom

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf? = nope
94. Do you love the person who tagged you? = yes
95. Did you sing today? = yep, pandora makes a great back up singer
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = nope
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = june 1998, to really appreciate what i had
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = one of the days at home with everyone
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = i'm afraid of getting hurt
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = not a chance
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