the one with baby chicks!

i like chickens for just a short time

i like them when they are babies and

so super adorable!

after they get big

and aren't cute to hold

i'm done, i don't want anything to do with them

well, until i get the eggs

this is peyton

but her nickname is Aphrodite, 

or afro for short 

(since she has a litte afro)

i know she has a nickname for her nickname

get over it!

this is smalls

his brother died today

it was kinda sad

big brother (see previous post) was here today

but i didn't know how to tell him

so i told him brother of smalls was sleeping

it was very sad

and feeding time is so cute!

they get stuck in their feeder

and just sit in there

just relaxing

until they finally come out

more pictures to come!

the one with my babies

okay so they're not really my babies

but i love them, like tons,

and i see them almost everyday

and they're practically family

this is chunckers

and he's reaching for bbq

the child has great taste

this child hates naps, with a passion

and not even 45 minutes later after

our amazing lunch

he was out cold. 

and his new favorite thing

is peek-a-boo

and he has the loudest, cutest laugh

this is baby girl

she alwasys has the cutest outfits,

thanks to her gorgeous mother!

and she's so mild mannered and easy going

we're two peas in a pod

and they play so well together

she helps roll him around

and he eats her shoe

and this is the cutest big brother!

he loves tv

loves my phone

and loves pretending to be to be french artists with me

we even had mustaches, nbd!

[pinterest] craft day, or weekend

my friend krista organized this craft day last weekend

after much drama they were ready to go around 9

but my lazy behind didn't get there til 11

and then i was hooked so i kept crafting

all weekend and into the week

the inspiration for this was a set of four blocks

but all my wood was being used for something else

and i found these super cute, small canvases

i found this on pinterest and fell in love

super easy and fun to make

this one's for mom

i started this at craft day with elmer's glue

cause that's what the pin said

 but it's a lie! use fabric paint

it's easier, dries faster and more fun

i painted this one too

but i didn't write the quote til later

i'm addicted to filling my life with good quotes

and i loved this from the help

so i don't remember what i thought it was

but i looked it up and i loved it!

it reminds me to listen to the holy ghost

and not argue or rationalize why not to listen

i found this quote and i really liked it

and i wanted to have it up for me to see it

i had this canvas that i painted a long time ago

but i didn't like it, i thought it looked crappy

so i took this opportunity to repaint it

my plan was just to make it white,

and it was so dark that it took three coats

and then my plan was just to make grass

but my blonde came out and

instead of mixing blue with yellow

i mixed it with white

and after i did the green i didn't want to mess it up

so for now this is what it looks like

i have some more but i don't want

to show it before i give it to people

things need to be said

i'm not backing down

because i still think what i said

but i am sorry people were hurt

being ignorant makes me...

i wanted to say mad,

because that's what i want to label it at first

and then i realize it's pity and sadness

you don't get over a huge,

life changing, traumatic event

and when someone goes through something similar

you feel an unfortunate kinship-
one that you never wished to share with anyone, ever

no one will understand it

no one will be able to say the right thing

but when the people who are closest to you

start talking about a similar event

and talk about the things you went through

and say they can't imagine what it's like

it makes me want to scream, and cry, and run

run from them, run from the people i thought understood

understood my family, understood me

i know, i know what it's like

i know what it's like to never want to be happy again

i know what it's like to want all of this, this event, this life, all of it, to be over

i know what it's like to see it all unfold in front of you

i know what it's like to think what if

what if i hadn't fallen asleep

what if i had acted earlier

what if things were different

what if he were still here

and what hurts the most is i still feel alone

i feel like i never even knew them

like they never knew us, me

broken.

since may

i've been

consistently broken

and i've been

thinking a lot

about it

one moment

you go from having

something being perfectly normal

to having to spend

days, weeks, months

repairing yourself

you're never the same

somethings strengthen

somethings weaken

but you grow

and are more careful

you learn to adapt

you learn to laugh it off

you learn that it's your life

for better or for worse

and one day

it'll all be behind you

and you'll be okay someday

I was 11

ten years ago today i was eleven

it was tuesday

i had gotten up and gone to school

just like any other day

i was wearing a camel colored shirt

and camel flowered pants

and i'm pretty sure i was wearing

brown clunkers

and my hair was probably in a pony tail

i knew nothing of any of the events

until i was at lunch

a teacher came and told me my mom

was in the office and i needed to go see her

she asked me if i knew what was going on

if i had heard about low flying planes

i looked at her funny and said no

she gave me a hug and said she'd get me after school

i went back to lunch

and told my 'friends' that my mom

had told me planes had been flying low

in albany, ga [my dad was out of town there]

mom had told us that sunday

that we were watching too much tv

and didn't want us to turn it on at all that week

when i got home i heard all about it

i remember abusing the new rule mom had set

as long as i watching news about 9/11

i could watch tv

i still think about them

i think about united 93

i think about all the family left behind

i think about these men

i love finding out more about the events

and fully understanding what happened

i love united 93 [the movie]

i love let's roll [the book]

and i'm working on the 9/11 commission report

i wish this hadn't happened

i wish that these people were still here today

but this is the next best thing

the one with one of the best things i have ever done!

the chick-fil-a grand opening here in midland

was a BLAST!

i had such a great time!

will and i got there about 5:35 am

and by about 6:10 we had our raffle tickets

because if there are over 100 people there by 6 am

then they raffle off the 100 spots

i was pretty nervous by the time we were

half way through the raffle.

the guy in front of me had been called,

and pretty quickly the guy behind me was called

will and i were finally called, #85

we were ushered inside

filled out paperwork

was given a super cute cup

and then ushered back outside

to get our parking spot/camping stall

this was our home for about 21 hours

since it took forever for us to get a spot

we had some pretty great neighbors

and some annoying neighbors,

who played music over the operator's father playing a trumpet

 and jammed out til about 2

we played games all afternoon and til about 10ish

i participated in a savenger hunt

via  columbus ledger enquirer

only downside i got pretty burned

like in pain for a couple days

we woke up the next morning, packed up

and got in numerical order

were handed t-shirts

[picture to come]

and went inside to be given our 52 free meal tickets

then will and i went inside for some breakfast

making us one of the first five paying customers

if you want to see what happened next

click here

in a couple days
will, zac and i
are going to another opening
in tucker, GA if you wanna come!

the one with a super long day ahead of me

tomorrow i'm getting up at 4:45

i'm packing the car with

tents, blankets, pillows,

chairs, drinks, food,

chargers and more

i'm not going in the woods,

i'm camping out at chik-fil-a

until about 6:30 on thursday

for free chik-fil-a!

not just a couple free meals,

"a year of free chik-fil-a"

or to be more exact 52 free meal vouchers

so text me, call me,

tweet me, or even stop by

cause i'll be there all day!

the one with the evans

the evans are like my second family

they are my favorite

their kids are super cute

and they love me

can it get any better?

yes, yes it can!

they say the cutest stuff

the kids

e 14 year old girl

j 10 year old boy

b  year old boy

m 4 year old boy

j, while playing with my phone,

said "you have the ellen app?

to which i replied "yes, i love ellen!"

b then blurted out "i love ellen too!"

b is just so cute and always loves what you think

a stay-at-home mom would love

j, while i was checking out the johnson's blog,

said the cutest thing but you'll need some background

the johnson's are currently living in germany they had picture up

so j said "do they have mormon church there?"

and i said "yeah..."

"wow, they just drink a lot and i didn't think they would have one"

ummm, i love these kids.

more to come i'm with them for like another 18 hours